an illegitimate child trying to voice her thoughts
finally got married, took vows: stick it out at all cost
well i guess you lied like as if she was your other wives
accept the break up ?sure why not
since i am an illegitimate child breaking up is the only thing I've got -
to look forward to that is.
you have 5 kids and two now make it three ex- wives
do you promise to still be my daddy when this is over or will you drop me like you did the others
pay your fee and move on to the next number
wife number 4.
maternal don't look so blameless
if the walls could talk there would be infinite echos of your voice screaming profanities
and what left is me and my younger crying out for a bond that last beyond your wants and needs
WHAT ABOUT WE!
don't we have a say in who get whats and who we see.
no i forgot we're not 18 so we have no voice
no choice in the matter of she and he
all i have is this poem
this cry for help
hopefully this computer screen can transcend what I've always wanted to be.
loved. wanted. and seen.
not heard but felt
now love and its concept is battered for me
every man who enters my life will have to be better than my fraternal
its a shame I'm so cold and sleepless nights are inevitable
I've become introverted and becoming nocturnal
who am i the illegitimate child to turn to
to young to be liberated but to old to hush
i just want to SCREAM
HEY YOU, DO NT TAKE AWAY MY DREAM !
this is NOT what a family is to do.
but silent cries go unheard
closed moth doesn't get fed
prisoner of verbs, words, and pleas
no one hears my pain because its hidden
until those divorce papers are signed
i will be in denial pushing things like this in a case labeled "Fragile- to be filed" - later
so get your divorce your both dying to receive
maybe one day you'll realized the moment you signed you lost me.
