fake rolexes, maxin' and relaxin'

i have trouble sleeping because i only want to be with you. lately all i listen to is india arie, maxwell, jon b, norah jones, and j holiday. im soo simpy. i like it. its an adventure. im a little nervous about college b/c i havent gotten any letters well i didnt submit the fee lol so maybe thats it. there are some changes: no more blackberry :( he was missing a p and the connection was slow, so we parted ways :(

yellow skies, xo dani

be careful what you wish for

happiness is a funny thing,

there are so many things in life you think will make you happy and they don't

people don't make you happy,

things don't make you happy,

experiences don't make you happy

and recently i've learned nothing makes me really happy.

i am either extremely passive or overwhelmed with anger,

i am a prisoner of my own words.

i can't speak, i only think

my thoughts consume me

i am not happy, i am merely existing because its the only thing in my life that is constant

people leave, situations change, seasons fade

only myself, my thoughts and God remain.

sometimes i fear even he'll leave me.

im apprehensive of everything i voice and think

im policing myself: insanity

i dont want this anymore

i have everything i've ever wanted

and i don't know who i am anymore

i've lost myself in my thoughts

i cannot sleep at night

i cannot stay awake in the day

pray this feeling fades

being angry doesnt work, neither does acting as if im happy