so there's this guy.... (nothing new here) i mean isn't there always a guy in a girl's life
but there's something i can't put my finger on about this guy.
i always found him attractive but never took it beyond that until now
i did not realize the ramifications of being involved with him until i began building enemies simply by association with him
but i cannot stop my fascination with him
im drawn to him, i yearn to know more
maybe his mystery is his allure
i can't figure it out
it's more than sexual, emotional, or ascetics
i like his scent, touch, kiss and how his fingers fit perfectly in the spaces between mine
the twinkle in his eye when i say something sweet
it's getting rather deep.
i gave him apart of me
and i want to run
i gave him my love and im afraid
not because he is a bad guy or i feel i've made a mistake
im afraid because he is such a good guy
see, i suffer from philophobia: the fear of love, loving or being in love
it has increased since my father received his wings
now what am i supposed to do when i want him in my world and everything in my body tells me to run from him b/c of messed up things i've encountered.
im faced with a proposal, heart ache and this dream of love i want so much i can touch
