poetry

yur intelect is breathe taking and yu body is a temple, sometimes im afraid your to amazing for someone like me thats so simple
yur essence is amazing and yur scent is alluring, yur body is calling and now my soul is imploring the possibilities of our entities exploring, venturing into an enchanted exchange of two hearts beating as one...(:

wknd

tired of running

These love songs get me and I feel like ahh I want love but as soon as a guy gets close to me I push him away or I can’t image us being together or my personal favorite: “I’m not ready for a relationship but let’s see where this goes.” That is my line of choice. Maybe I’m more in love with the fantasy of love than actually working hard for something. Can’t keep running away every time something gets too involved or difficult for me to handle but that question that has remained for as long as I can remember is :

“Do I really want to work this hard for something I’m not sure I’m ready for / want?”

In a sense I can be perceived as lazy in relationships. I’ve never had to work that hard at anything in life, most things come natural. When I do get involved I give of myself a lot but I also feel I could give more at the end of the day. There is always someone who likes me and I can’t stand them but I keep them around so I won’t feel so alone. It all boils down to my philophobia: fear of love and fear of lonely. I want to love with all my heart and nothing is holding me back yet I can’t give my heart freely to another person. I know all the right words to say and how to be supportive and act like a girlfriend should but at the end of the day I cannot decide if I really want to be someone’s girlfriend or continue to play that role. 95% of me says take the plunge and when you feel it’s right, but I have no idea when it’s right. When I think some things right it’s usually wrong. I think I’ve already found the right guy but wasn’t ready for what he needed to give me. I’m on a quest for happiness now that I’ve realized what I actually want in life: I want to fall madly, hopelessly in love with someone who feels the same about me. Someone who can teach me and I can teach, someone to take off my cool and see me as I with him. (: I’ve been hurt and I lobe hard well I like hard lol never been in love but today I realized I want it. I guess I’m growing up and I have to be patient. Dying my bangs purple is kind of a rebirth of my romantic side. Just tired of running from something I obviously need and want. Fearless in love isn’t me just yet but time only changes the weather, so I’ll be there when the time comes. (:

_orange fever (:

divorce

an illegitimate child trying to voice her thoughts

finally got married, took vows: stick it out at all cost

well i guess you lied like as if she was your other wives

accept the break up ?sure why not

since i am an illegitimate child breaking up is the only thing I've got -

to look forward to that is.

you have 5 kids and two now make it three ex- wives

do you promise to still be my daddy when this is over or will you drop me like you did the others

pay your fee and move on to the next number

wife number 4.

maternal don't look so blameless

if the walls could talk there would be infinite echos of your voice screaming profanities

and what left is me and my younger crying out for a bond that last beyond your wants and needs

WHAT ABOUT WE!

don't we have a say in who get whats and who we see.

no i forgot we're not 18 so we have no voice

no choice in the matter of she and he

all i have is this poem

this cry for help

hopefully this computer screen can transcend what I've always wanted to be.

loved. wanted. and seen.

not heard but felt

now love and its concept is battered for me

every man who enters my life will have to be better than my fraternal

its a shame I'm so cold and sleepless nights are inevitable

I've become introverted and becoming nocturnal

who am i the illegitimate child to turn to

to young to be liberated but to old to hush

i just want to SCREAM

HEY YOU, DO NT TAKE AWAY MY DREAM !

this is NOT what a family is to do.

but silent cries go unheard

closed moth doesn't get fed

prisoner of verbs, words, and pleas

no one hears my pain because its hidden

until those divorce papers are signed

i will be in denial pushing things like this in a case labeled "Fragile- to be filed" - later

so get your divorce your both dying to receive

maybe one day you'll realized the moment you signed you lost me.

rainy days...

tie. shorts.wild hair.sleep shirt.= lazy day//it must have rained. (:

thanks for tuning in to HighYellowSkies (:
later days. (:

split ends.

split ends. i hate those bad boys but they are a sign of growth. i wish my soul could should me when im growing. life is a process of trial, error, and starting all over again. back to the drawing board comes from realzing yu have split ends. (:

provided by dani (:

i walk alone

history repeats itself im caught in this exchange;

love.

they say its better to love and lost then to never love at all.
they say
one's first love is perfect until one meets second love.
they say if you
love something let it go; if it comes that its yours; if it
doesnt it never
was.
they say love is the most amazing and essential experiences a being can
attain; yet most don't.

bottom line: everyone has their own views on love and wants love, jst let it happen (:

autumn '08 (:

i love autumn// fall. the leaves fall yu can wear mittins, and scarfs. The leaves fall and you get to snuggle with yur hunnny/ hunnies (: . Love is in the air and the skyy is so pretty. We get an extra hour of sleep. Ahh i just love fall

provided by dani (:

its been a LONG time!

sorry we havent been posting, but with school , boys, gossip, drama, and junior year HW, there is limited time lol. here are friendly up dates:

BT: (: "Ahhh BT!" lol she got herself a boy and dosnt know anyone lol. no drama for her this year YET.

Stephanater: man shes just in the middle of everythign but hey whats new. She is trying to keep the grades up and what not lookign for a "real realtionship" goign for the safe "PRACTICE LAPS" WTF SMH

Dani: as for me, Im in my hippie/ future nudist, writing poems, playing guitar, hating the Spanish language as a whole ( not the ppl just the language lol) got a tan lol. life is a beach chair! (:

visit these:
kanyeuniversecity.com/blog
wkndwarriors.blogspot.com

given to yu by

track hoochies pt1! you be the judge

My cuzzin Dj Jon Jon ewww lol

look at the JEAN SHORTS LMAO

pre party!
Party!

Coming to MTV this FALL ...INGLEWOOOOOD!

INGLEWOOD!!! Is MTV's newest venture. Following 3 youths through out their daily lives.
(from left to right)
David"Chubbs"B. is your average young man trying to make it through to have a good life while trying to remain faithful to his girlfriend.

Danielle "Dani" O. is the average "good girl" tryign to break that mold and show her friends who she really is.

Richard"Play" C. is the ladies man with a girlfriend how ironic. Richard is trying to have a good life but wanyts to break away from is mom.

more charcters in the works.... NO SCRIPTS..NO B.S... just INGLEWOOOOOOD! (:

5 things that makes l.a beautiful

5. The weather.. omj its wonderful especially with a cool breeze ahhhhh!

4. beautiful ppl... i mean they are EVERYWHERE! l.a makes ppl look better

3.the BEACH! no explaination warrented... think bonfires..volleyball...sand..surf..sun=fun!

2.DIVERSITY.... look around there is black ppl. whites..mexicans(latins)..arabs..just everywhere. jews//gentiles.. find that in kansas!

1.USC//UCLA //the LAKERS//melrose//.... need i say more

Los Angeles is the place to be.. anyone who told you different LIED and badly at that. L.A is laid back business all at the same time but to me its jus home (look for more list in the future (: )

sweetcheecks! && sweet thighs! (: